palatial
a collection of group writing prompts; a bowl of olives, always.
I ask myself, what are the words to say of the mean swells? We laugh at work of feminine rage. At the work of it; and how it can envelop the daily goings and hardenings so quiet until we are ice blocks of vinegar. Can vinegar freeze?
I ask myself, what do I do to fancy the words? To make them adjustable like neutrals. A background lo-fi. There is a question lately of palatial favor and I feel alone in my measurements
/Fate is chaos. We are not gods/ /I laughed at you and thought of scale./
There is something here I am trying to say about starting with a conviction and finishing with it changed.
He played in the land of Zelda while I watched an obsessive gaze in Fifty Shades, laughing at myself and us both. We held hands anyway and shared green olives across the sofa.
I dreamt of being kissed by an old lover in a house I’ve never seen. Why is running so hard when sleeping? It is floating fast with no rudder to steer. I dream I am navigating Central Park bundled in a good periwinkle puffer coat to the nose. I am me, but not.
Ode with Interruptions
BY RICK BAROT
Someone is in the kitchen washing the dishes.
Someone is in the living room watching the news.
Someone in a bedroom is holding a used stamp
with tweezers and adding it to his collection.
Someone is scolding a dog, barking now for
decades, a different dog for each of the decades.
Someone is reading the paper and listening to
a baseball game on the radio at the same time —
At the base of the altar, you drop some coins
into a wooden box and the lights reveal the vast,
worn painting in front of you. The holy subject
is illuminated for a few minutes before it is dim
again. There are churches all over Italy where
you can do this. The smell of incense, stone —
Someone is taking the ashes out of the small
cave of the fireplace, though this might have been
a hundred years ago, when the house was new
and we didn’t live in it. Someone is writing
a letter on thin blue paper. Someone is putting
down the needle onto a spinning record, just so.
On the couch, someone is sleeping. Upstairs,
someone is looking into the bathroom mirror —
While we were waiting for her surgery to finish,
I walked around the hospital and came across
a waiting room that had an enormous aquarium.
/Someone is walking down the creaking staircase
in the dark, a hand sliding on the rail. Someone
is on the telephone, which means nobody else
can use it for another hour. Someone in his room
is doing homework, me or someone almost like
me, twenty, fifty years ago. Someone is reading
in her room. Someone is talking to the gray wall.
Someone is talking to the gray wall. In summer,
on a hot afternoon, someone peels at a corner
of wallpaper and sees more wallpaper beneath —
I used to think that to write poems, to make art,
meant trying to transcend the prosaic elements
of the self, to arrive at some essential plane, where
poems were supposed to succeed. I was wrong.



"We held hands anyway and shared green olives across the sofa." Ugh, I love how this line grounds us - so beautiful, Jill. As always.
Catching up with you, late as usual - always a part of you, always in awe of you - while your wisdom and insights remind me again that we are each on our own journeys. Lovely work, child, thank you.